I don’t remember exactly what inspired this mixed media painting. Except that it was another intuitive journey and continued to shift over time. Putting down colors that I was drawn to, seeing images within the evolving piece, deciding which ones to elaborate on and which ones to let go.
It was a cold, winter’s night in the mountains where I live. There was the early dark of winter and a blizzard outside. There was nowhere to go and no friend to meet. An existential loneliness settled in around me. Resistance is the first response when an uncomfortable feeling presents. Feet dug in…”I don’t want to go there.” But it persisted and I needed to be with it. I’d been working on a painting of a polar bear in the Arctic. I’d been trying to paint the aurora borealis. Good luck with that! That sky went through so many changes.
What prompted me to paint a polar bear in the Arctic, that I can’t really say except that as I created the background, his image hovered in the painting. I brought him forward.
That night of extreme loneliness, staring at this painting in process, imagining the polar bear as his world disappears, I wrote the poem that I’ve already shared in this blog earlier. It begins like this…
It’s cold and I’m alone again at night
The stars so far away, no comfort there
Is the polar bear aware of his plight?
Ice floes are melting, does anyone care?
Painting this piece, writing the poem, helped to shift my energy. The poem and painting connected me to something outside of myself, bigger than my small life and this moment of loneliness.
To be human is to feel loneliness at times. In this time of the pandemic, social isolation and uncertainty, find a way to either write, draw or paint or any other creative activity.
One exploration could involve color. Color crayons, watercolors, acrylics, colored pencils…any of these work. On a piece of paper, put down colors that you feel particularly attracted to. Place them side by side, at different angles to each other. If you are using paints, notice which colors make other colors “pop” forward and which colors recede. Let yourself play with color.