Is She a Victim?

(from a journal dated 04.26.2018)

Mother
comes with a built-in judgment
a plan for struggle
to fall and fail
Her platform, built by men
an ‘ideal’ that doesn’t allow her
to be whole.

While Mother has the most amazing qualities,
potential
–she is placed in a hotbed of
masculine insecurity and his misuse of power,
his idea that power means to overpower–
to oppress, suppress and make her subject to…
his unhealed places.

Her qualities, natural instincts of care, nurture
compassion
and feminine power
are contorted to fit into his world,
to meet his needs.


Mother is stolen from herself
and her children.
She is lost, she is sad.

*****
Today…03.11.2021
I have written about woman, wife, mother for most of my life. I am or have been all of these. Some humans would like to believe that we’ve evolved so much that there is no longer oppression and abuse of women. We hear world news rendering this belief as false. Yet, we hold onto the idea that it’s not happening here. Sadly, it is present today in our own country, our own community and our own families. Domestic Violence is real. It is mostly the abuse of women and children.

The woman victim often denies that she is a battered wife. There is a complex of qualities that create a circumstance for domestic violence. For the woman being abused, it can involve low self-esteem, trauma, shame, confusion, the desire to be loved and cared for, fear and more. There can be an economic component as to why a woman stays in an abusive relationship. There are always hidden reasons and causes, below the level of her awareness–often, she grew up in a household where this was modeled. The male abuser has likely been a victim himself–of trauma and having grown up in such a household. He has not learned to value a woman nor has he learned how to manage his own triggers, anger, past trauma.

When I moved to the mountains, twenty-plus years ago, I determined to write about the battered wife…her battle for sovereignty. When she recognizes that she has stayed too long in an abusive and demeaning relationship, how does she finally leave? My mother never left. She stayed true to the model of battered wife to the end. She stood by her husband despite the ongoing abuse. In the care home, I witnessed how my father finally had only to give my mother an icy stare for her to comply with his demands. The patterns were so well-established and neither of them knew how to extricate themselves from such a merciless cycle.

This is one of many tough topics. One that many people in my circles avoid. I understand why. It’s an ugly topic, isn’t it? It has ancestral roots. How does one change something that is so embedded? And, of course, how does the prevailing and entrenched attitude towards women as inferior to men begin to change? How does a woman change that diminished model within herself?

Sometimes, when a woman has experienced domestic violence over a long period of time, it is hard for her to talk about it. If she has left the situation, there is a part of her that wants to shrink away from it and ‘have a happy life now.’ However, the effects are lingering and the body has set up patterns of re-traumatization with the intention of protection. Reading about something along the lines of domestic violence, a woman can get triggered back into an event in her life. Fight, flight and freeze strategies are engaged. Conducting a normal life is unrealistic given this response to triggers.

This topic of Domestic Violence is up for me now as currently some of my family members are living through this nightmare. For one of them, it has been carried to the extreme and she is in the hospital fighting for her life. When and how does this change? First by shining a light of recognition on it. Bringing awareness to that which we would rather avoid. The world has been under the spell of man’s dominion over woman and nature long enough. We’re missing everything until we are inclusive of the wisdom that is innate when we embrace our interdependence on one another and the wholeness of life.




6 thoughts on “Is She a Victim?

  1. Christine, this is profound truth, perfectly expressed. It deserves to be widely shared. I’m praying for your family member, seeing her whole again, and sending you comfort.

    I’ll look forward this on Facebook so I can share.

    Thank you for sharing your voice.

    Much love, Judy

    On Thu, Mar 11, 2021 at 8:20 PM Wake Up Princess wrote:

    > wakeupprincess posted: ” (from a journal dated 04.26.2018) Mothercomes > with a built-in judgmenta plan for struggleto fall and failHer platform, > built by menan ‘ideal’ that doesn’t allow herto be whole.While Mother has > the most amazing qualities,potential–she is placed in a h” >

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    1. Dear Judy, Thank you for your compassionate comment. I want to share this post more widely yet am protective of the vulnerability of the family member at this time. I could remove the paragraph that mentions her and post it on my FB Artist’s page. I appreciate your prayers.

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  2. Sending your family member much love on her healing journey. I feel every woman has experienced some type of violence in her life whether physical, emotional, or verbal. We must keep a spotlight on it, continue expecting more and better from the world and the people around us. Enough.

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    1. Thanks, Danielle. It’s hard not to get discouraged at times. I agree and it’s very sad that there are many ways that domestic violence manifests. I like your words “We must keep a spotlight on it…” A male friend who watches a lot of news said he was upset to see so much in the way of misogyny in the news. I didn’t ask for specifics…it’s upsetting enough. I do recommend Amanda Vickery’s narration of The Story of Women and Power. It’s on Amazon Prime. Yes, it’s ENOUGH!

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