“The need for change
bulldozed a road down
the center of my mind. ”
This quote from Maya Angelou is likely something we can relate to at different times in our lives. I know that it has been true for me over the course of my life.
Personally, I recognize the too tight box I’m living in. Or the habit that persists that really wants to be let go of. Sometimes it’s a closet of clothes that I no longer wear. Other times, it’s a deep desire for something different than the same old, same old. Shifting a perspective can be, as one of my sister’s said, like bending steel.
Whatever it is, how do I allow change in? How do you invite or choose necessary change?
At this time, change is thrust upon us externally. Any external change is going to cause whatever complacency we might have to be disrupted. We have become aware of that in these uncertain days. What is within that hasn’t really been working is called to the forefront and we have to DEAL WITH IT. Whatever it is.
I’m not sure when Maya Angelou said the above quote…and what was exactly going on in her life. Years ago, I read one of her biographies, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings. I remember it being about her early years, childhood and young womanhood. It entailed her reaction to a childhood where she experienced some of the cruelties of life. A period where she didn’t speak for five years after a horrific event occurred. She was pregnant at 17 with her one and only child, a son. She lead a chaotic life for awhile–was a prostitute, owned a brothel, ran wild. At some point, she pursued higher education and eventually became a scholar, a professor, writer and poet and rubbed elbows with some of the amazing people of our times including Nelson Mandela.
If you don’t know Maya Angelou, if you don’t know of the rich tapestry of her life, I encourage you to read one of her several chronological autobiographies. And, you would discover how she made pivotal choices that changed the course of her life. I also encourage you to read some of her poetry which is typically about a woman’s self-discovery and identity. Her poetry is something that I connect with–it reaches beyond any differences of race, creed or color.
All of that to ask “What in your life needs to be changed?” When faced with this question, I sometimes begin by clearing some clutter, cleaning out a drawer or a closet, journaling about a mindset, writing a poem that releases something old (or several) and writing poetry that invites in something new. Painting can also foster the change you want to make in the outer world. There are other supports for the changes you want to make. A circle of friends, sharing and talking about something new that you and they want to bring about helps. Prayers for guidance helps. Consider the supports and resources that are available as you choose to change something. You’re not alone, truly.
Always, be gentle with yourself during the process. It’s often about recognition. And then we go from there.
I had to post this poem written and read by Maya Angelou because all I see is a woman of power. She was forty years old when she spoke this poem. Her voice, wow! Her presence, wow! The way that she occupies the poem as she recites it, wow!