Fear of being judged.
Sometimes I don’t respond to the call. Sometimes, the universe delivers precise messages that it’s time to do an art show. Locally, invitations come to me. I find a reason to say “no, thank you.” I make excuses that seem true in the moment… “I’m grieving.” or “It’s too costly to get frames and prep the art for a show.” or “I’m mostly self-taught–I haven’t gone to art school.”
In retrospect all of these reasons (excuses) seem false, constructed to protect myself in some way. Our art is, after all, our progeny and we protect it accordingly along with our fragile artist’s ego. Behind all of this, is the fear that others are going to judge me and my art unfavorably. Time to get past that.
You cannot be discovered and invisible at the same time!
Recognizing and making opportunities.
Think about the attention that has come your way through your art or writing or poetry–when you deign to share it. That old “don’t hide your light under a bushel” parable comes to mind. Given a gift, it is meant to be shared. I have to remind myself of this when I humbly dismiss an invitation to have an art show or decline to read a poem publicly.
Notes to self: 1)When someone says that they like my art…that they want to purchase something because it speaks to them or that they’d like to see more of my art, say “Yes”. 2) And, when they say that a painting is something they could live with comfortably and appreciate daily, don’t dismiss that. Share more of what you do with them.
I’ve been thinking about the unlikely places to share my art as well as the generous offers from a local hotel and a gallery. Take a little expedition within a thirty mile radius of where I live. Who could host a piece or two of my art. I’ve made up those business cards–but I could give them a fresh look. And then, actually hand them out!
If not now, when?
Truly, can any one of us measure the length of our lives? We didn’t come here to be invisible. We are each an expression of something that the universe has brought forth for a good reason. We are meant to be seen and heard. With due respect for others of course. It’s not a competition. It’s more like an ARRAY. What a beautiful word. In an array of flowers, there is not one that has to be the most beautiful. Again, reminding me of the word “synergy” where the parts aren’t greater than the whole…they work together in a harmonious array.
STOP PLAYING HARD TO GET!
So it is with your art…joining the league of artists, each a star in his/her own orbit. What a brilliant idea!
Another quote I love and refer to time and again:
“When I dare to be powerful, to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid.” – Audre Lorde
What I’m saying is: Any one of us is being called on in some way to express ourselves at this time. I heard the phrase recently “You are here on purpose.” Wow, that’s a good one to contemplate. What you are working on or creating in your life right now, what would it be like to share it with another, others, the larger community?